Two days ago I received devastating, life-altering news. I don't want to talk about it here, please don't ask what it was. I'll just say that it's the kind of news that instantly gave me a sense of superficiality about everything I do, from brushing my hair to watching a DVD.
Already I find myself having mood swings ranging from feeling almost normal with my sadness sitting just below the surface, to full-out bawling a few minutes later. But honestly, after news like this, there is no more normal.
I almost feel like I am doing something wrong as I go about my daily business, completing the tasks in my routines, and sometimes feel like I have weights attached to my clothes as I do so, making a simple chore feel that much more difficult to complete. I know I have to fight this feeling, because life goes on, but shaking the feeling that everything is so pointless now it hard. Again, I have to fight it.
Earlier today I was searching YouTube for a video of FlyLady when she was on the show "I'm Pregnant and a Hoarder" to show a friend, and while I was there I got sidetracked and started watching some of the other videos on her channel. I came across one where she is cleaning out rotten potatoes from her potato bin, and the sight of her squealing with disgust and practically gagging actually got a giggle out of me:
Thanks FlyLady for making me smile today, even if I didn't feel like it.